Never Lose Hope |
Today I was contacted
by a former student, one who’d undoubtedly taught me more than I’d taught
him. He’d also caused me to think about
normality differently from even the multifaceted way in which I’d previously viewed
it. His name was Rip, short for Euripides,
he had once explained to me, as his mother was into Greek Tragedy.
Rip was extremely
bright though this description doesn’t do him justice. There are many bright individuals walking the
earth who use their knowledge only to gain admiration. Rip simply loved
learning new things and discussing them with others. Unfortunately, there were few he could find
who would engage with him. He had what
would probably be labeled as Asperger’s Syndrome.
As the weeks passed
we began to discuss all types of subjects and their implications. I was fascinated by his reflections on the
wide variety of topics he’d read about, all by choice. I also came to be amazed by the seemingly
limitlessness of his interests, and his ability to apply them to his life.
One day, after a
lecture about social development Rip approached me looking out of sorts. His shifted from one foot to another,
remaining silent, a sure sign something was bothering him. Then suddenly without uttering a word he
began to walk off. I sensed there was
something he needed to say but that he feared the possibility of
rejection. Though desperately wanting to
ask, I knew pushing him would result in a melt down and forced myself to let
him go, despite the knots forming in my stomach. I left in the opposite direction, feeling
inept as my feet dragged me away.
Then, from behind, I
heard Rip call me. I turned towards him,
noticing a pained look on his face. He
held my eyes silently for a beat then asked, “Why do I feel like a square peg
trying to fit into a round hole?”
I struggled to come
up with an answer that would speak to what I knew he was asking. Before I could manage this, he asked an even
more difficult question.
“What do I do? I don’t want to be round.”
Undoubtedly unprofessional,
though I admit I wasn’t feeling particularly professional at the time, angry
that he’d been made to feel this way, I responded from sheer emotion.
“I think you should
be the person you want to be, whether it’s square, triangular or hexagonal for
that matter,” I replied. “Whatever shape
you choose to assume, I know it will be real, filled with meaning and possess
the very potential of the Universe itself.”
I think I shocked him
and know I shocked myself with my rather unusual and forcefully uttered
reply. A moment passed. Then another.
And then a smile
slowly lit his face. Without another
word he walked toward the door at the other end of the hall leaving me standing
stone still contemplating the lesson he’d taught me that day. When able to move, I turned toward the door opposite
where Rip had exited. As I walked,
having lost the drag but gained a slight bounce, I felt a smile grace my face
which tumbled into laughter. For once I
couldn’t have cared less about the odd looks I received.
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